Can I talk about something so real?
God is so much deeper than we make him out to be. We fail to realise that there are so many layers and levels to our relationship with God than we are currently at- we can never arrive at a full knowledge of who God is and His power. He calls us to have a deeper, more intimate relationship with Him every day, and He takes us through new seasons in order for us to learn a greater level of dependency on Him or a different aspect of his character.
For example, I can give a testimony of a time when I first came to Christ. I was about to go to university and I was stuck between choosing between going to Birmingham or staying in London… actually, let me go further by saying that summer I was BROKE to a point where I was really down because I wanted to work that summer. However, learning and coming to the knowledge that God does not love those who want anything more than Him, I decided to not let money be an idol in this season. I simply applied to jobs and said ‘Lord I trust you’. And I did, I did not stress anymore about having a job, I lived within my means and relied on His will for me because I knew He had a plan although I did not understand it. Now fast-forward to results day, a week before I had two job offers lined up, (I was contemplating declining them because in my mind I was going to Birmingham) …I didn’t get into Birmingham and got into my London university despite still not achieving the grades they asked for. He wanted me in London and He made sure that I was set and had everything He knew I desired. In Him not giving me that job straight away made me rely on His will and showed me that as long as I trusted Him I would not have to worry- I knew that he wanted me, and this drove me to want a deeper relationship with Him. I experienced a greater intimacy with Him that season.
Secondly, we have to realise that He is more than a feeling. Here I’m focusing on the Holy Spirit (I hope you know that He is also God), you need to make sure that your relationship with Him is INTIMATE because He is our helper, the one Jesus left to teach us and empower us, as well as counsel and comfort us. If you have ever felt the actual manifestation of the Holy Spirit you will know that it is Euphoria, you know in that moment that God is with you. His presence almost feels like a cloud resting above the room you feel like you can touch Him. But the Holy Spirit does not need to break windows open and cause wind in the air for Him to prove that He is there. After the first time I heard the Holy Spirit speak to me and felt His presence in my own room, it left me (the FEELING went) because I became reliant on it as a confirmation that He was with me and was listening to me. I was crying to my leaders because I thought it meant that He was no longer with me. If you have ever felt like this don’t worry! He is with you. He is more than just a feeling because His spirit dwells in us (1 John 4: 4) and he will never leave nor forsake us. Just because you cannot feel His presence does not mean He is not present, don’t rely on a feeling. The extent to which your relationship with Him goes should not be based on some chills down your spine. Our faith in Him should be more than this and we will not reach spiritual maturity until we realise this.
The Lord has shown me, even last week that He will make Himself distant (not leave you) in order to pull you into deeper fellowship with Him. When we become used to the way we approach Him we think that we have arrived when He wants to show you much more. Change the way you seek Him: Go deeper in your bible study, pray more fervently, spend more time with Him, cry out to Him with more of your heart. Check that you’re fully surrendered to Him. The word of God says to seek wisdom (of God) fervently- “Tune your ears to wisdom and concentrate on understanding. Cry out for insight and ask for understanding. Search for them as you would search for silver, seek them like hidden treasures. Then you will understand what it means to fear the Lord and you will gain the knowledge of God.”- Proverbs 2: 2-5. So it is clear, that when we are seeking godly wisdom and wisdom of God that we should not take it lightly and do it half-halfheartedly. As much as He is our Father, and friend, and saviour, He is God, the more you seek to know him the more intimate you will be with Him.
If you have been distant with God lately, I am here to assure you that all you need to do to get back on track with Him is to cry out to Him and pursue Him more fervently. Of course you may feel distant because you simply are not pursuing the things of God, however he may just be calling you to go deeper into your knowledge of Him. Either way He will restore you, just stick with Him and don’t stray from the truth. Rest in the promises of His word, He says, if a Father, being ungodly gives his children good gifts, how much more, will He (God) give you give you. He will not withhold himself from you if you call on Him.
I hope this helps someone xxxx
Stay beautiful, blessed, and a daughter of the Kingdom x